Sensitive
Salam Alaykum
That ZAaP! feeling when someone touches about your sensitivities. I'm not sure about anyone else, but I have my own peculiar sensitivities. Sensitivities are basically different from insecurities, insecurities are usually materialistic, of what we want but don't need and someone is more fortunate to have it, but sensitivities touch the whole aspect about the individual, pretty much offends us or hurts our feelings.
i'm actually a bit ashamed of my sensitivities though, as they have caused numerous times of me being moody which usually resorts to crying.
So yeah, here is this list of my sensitivities
1. The Right to Answer
Okay, so here's the story.
It happened last year when we learned a particular language, we all had to stand up before the lesson started to answer a few vocab questions by our teacher. I wasn't really enthusiastic about the language that time because of what the teacher had done, basically, offended my feelings. The table I sat was located at the most right corner of the classroom and at the back row.
One day, to answer the vocab question, I put up my hand and even shouted out to the teacher to answer the question. the teacher DIDN'T EVEN pick me even though she noticed me, it was devastating. My desk mates were in the same condition as me, but people have been saying that the teacher was a bit bias. in the end, I didn't even try to answer again. My desk was located near the window so i slowly walked to the window and cried faintly. I dried up my tears as the teacher said we could all sit down.
Next!
This happened this year, and recently too! So, this SHOlRT girl sucked up to our class teacher and said she couldn't see the whiteboard ( although she 2020 vision af).I'm 5'3 and among the tallest in my class, so I had to sit at the back (but it was kind of okay because there was a fan). And it wasn't fair because we were all separated from our besties and suddenly these two brats change places to sit next to their friends(one of them was SHOlRT). I was literally like, SAERIOUSLY? I cried too but only to my best friends. i don't know if they understood me, but it felt comforting. It wasn't freaking fair that they could do that! It really hurt my heart, like the feeling of an arrow pierced through it. Later on, I started to become more relaxed, but still feel bitchy when I see the two brats.
Then, we had to change seats again after our trials ( Alhamdulillah it went easy ) and our class teacher was the one who arranged our place and SHOlRT was sitting in the front+middle while the two brats could sit together and I had to sit at the back? Then ma squad was annoying me by SHOUTING out my name, saying that I wanted to sit next to **** though I didn't want to, by this moment, our teacher was writing our names on the board according to our future desks. Despite my squad shouting my name numerous of times, Mrs T probably had a hearing problem and didn't write my name and till the end she finally sad "who else?"
-_-
Seriously!! i felt as if i was neglected, i was ashamed, and bowed down my head and cried. my friends comforted me but I was actually laughing, when i realize i'm crying over nothing major. but still, i couldn't lift my face as my eyes were still damp with the tears. then Mrs T came over and asked what's the problem? "HAHAHAHA WEH SERIOUSLY' she literally embarrassed me BIG TIME when the whole class looked at me.
I don't like to cry, honestly, but when I do, I do it with pride. I have my reasons and you have no right to talk or touch my sensitivity towards anything. not just mine, but everybody's.
-HR
That ZAaP! feeling when someone touches about your sensitivities. I'm not sure about anyone else, but I have my own peculiar sensitivities. Sensitivities are basically different from insecurities, insecurities are usually materialistic, of what we want but don't need and someone is more fortunate to have it, but sensitivities touch the whole aspect about the individual, pretty much offends us or hurts our feelings.
i'm actually a bit ashamed of my sensitivities though, as they have caused numerous times of me being moody which usually resorts to crying.
So yeah, here is this list of my sensitivities
1. The Right to Answer
Okay, so here's the story.
It happened last year when we learned a particular language, we all had to stand up before the lesson started to answer a few vocab questions by our teacher. I wasn't really enthusiastic about the language that time because of what the teacher had done, basically, offended my feelings. The table I sat was located at the most right corner of the classroom and at the back row.
One day, to answer the vocab question, I put up my hand and even shouted out to the teacher to answer the question. the teacher DIDN'T EVEN pick me even though she noticed me, it was devastating. My desk mates were in the same condition as me, but people have been saying that the teacher was a bit bias. in the end, I didn't even try to answer again. My desk was located near the window so i slowly walked to the window and cried faintly. I dried up my tears as the teacher said we could all sit down.
Next!
This happened this year, and recently too! So, this SHOlRT girl sucked up to our class teacher and said she couldn't see the whiteboard ( although she 2020 vision af).I'm 5'3 and among the tallest in my class, so I had to sit at the back (but it was kind of okay because there was a fan). And it wasn't fair because we were all separated from our besties and suddenly these two brats change places to sit next to their friends(one of them was SHOlRT). I was literally like, SAERIOUSLY? I cried too but only to my best friends. i don't know if they understood me, but it felt comforting. It wasn't freaking fair that they could do that! It really hurt my heart, like the feeling of an arrow pierced through it. Later on, I started to become more relaxed, but still feel bitchy when I see the two brats.
Then, we had to change seats again after our trials ( Alhamdulillah it went easy ) and our class teacher was the one who arranged our place and SHOlRT was sitting in the front+middle while the two brats could sit together and I had to sit at the back? Then ma squad was annoying me by SHOUTING out my name, saying that I wanted to sit next to **** though I didn't want to, by this moment, our teacher was writing our names on the board according to our future desks. Despite my squad shouting my name numerous of times, Mrs T probably had a hearing problem and didn't write my name and till the end she finally sad "who else?"
-_-
Seriously!! i felt as if i was neglected, i was ashamed, and bowed down my head and cried. my friends comforted me but I was actually laughing, when i realize i'm crying over nothing major. but still, i couldn't lift my face as my eyes were still damp with the tears. then Mrs T came over and asked what's the problem? "HAHAHAHA WEH SERIOUSLY' she literally embarrassed me BIG TIME when the whole class looked at me.
I don't like to cry, honestly, but when I do, I do it with pride. I have my reasons and you have no right to talk or touch my sensitivity towards anything. not just mine, but everybody's.
-HR
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